Sunday, October 19, 2014

Passions in life, Where did I lose my way?

I just watched If I stay tonight and man can I tell you its a tear jerker. The thing that had me crying so much was the fact that she knew what she wanted and she loved what she did. To play something so purely is amazing and makes me realize how empty I have come to be? I guess that is the best way I can describe it... I had such dreams and passions when I was younger, or so I thought. Its hard to remember that long ago when now you ask me what I want to do I can't really come up with an answer. I have reached an age where what once seemed so important doesn't matter anymore. I have become someone without hopes and dreams. Writing is one of the last things I do for myself  simply because I want to, (besides nail polish that is.) Even with writing I feel like I am not where I want to be. I feel like its become like a job to me and has lost its fun. I am working to regain the passion I once had and not just write reviews, could short stories or poems be in the future again? Who knows only time will tell. I know just how that girl felt to know that when she wakes she would be alone in the world. I am not alone anymore but I feel like I may have lost a piece of myself during the years I was alone and I just don't know what I want anymore.

I guess I just simply want to be happy and I'll take everything else one day at a time.


  1. I think we all have those moments.. I love writing but I also love photography and making natural items.. So at 44 I am jumping into all 3. Baby steps, deep breaths and a leap of faith hun..

  2. I am experiencing that moment right now, I feel like I have reached a crossroad in my life and I don't know which way to turn.


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